Anti-America

I am noticing lately that when I talk to people I am labeled as someone who hates America. This assumption is not accurate. I am an American citizen. For me to hate the place where I live, to me, seems less than smart. However, there is good reason I come off so anti-America. I do hate the idea of an overlord governmental system. I am fully aware of the need for government. However, I do not believe that any government has any business in individuals lives. I personally believe that the American people need to take ownership. The concept of self governing is a fantastic idea. It is needed. If everyone policed themselves, we could do with out all of the laws. Granted for this to work everyone in the entire United States of America would have to really have to become less reliant on the gorilla that is the government, and become much more reliant on one another. Moreover, on themselves. We as a society, and as a culture, need to start taking responsibility for our actions. I think it's insane that we (the we being the government and the country as a whole, not the citizens necessarily) attempt to police the rest of the world, when we cannot get our own shit in a figurative scoop. If I could I wish I could separate myself from the actions of this government. Start my own life. A life with out government. A life where the only authority I have to answer to is my own. And in this I do not mean I'm going to build a cabin in the woods and go on a crime spree. In fact it's the opposite. I want to live among everyone. Limit the amount of control that the government has. And preach not with words but actions. Actions that depict an ideal. The ideal of 'Self-Governing.' These ideas are far from new. I am in no way attempting to take credit for this idea. It probably has been around from the beginning of time. Ironically, it was there, on the minds of the forefathers. And now we are here. Depending on the government to take care of us. IT is not our mothers. IT is not our nurses. IT is not our friend. IT is a tool. A tool that we the people are supposed to crank. IT shouldn't crank us. When is the last time a screw driver used you to screw in a screw?

a Confession

I am a very judgmental, shallow, heartless, detestable human being. I sicken myself. And I think if you really look at yourself, I am sure that you'd sicken yourself as well. People are not good. But the only thing I can do is accept them. I should at least. But I, sadly, cannot bring myself to accept certain people. This I understand is not good. If this offends you, I don't care. So in part this is a realization about myself, and in part a realization about others. Is it fair? No. Is it right? No. And that is all.

The Black Keys

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What truley matters?

Life? Happiness? Procreation? Religion? Friends? Relationships? Education? Learning? Love? Laughter? Your self? Anyone? Do these things matter? Something that may mean something to you may mean nothing at all to me. Is a person's perception the only thing that matters to that person? My answer is yes. The only thing that matters is what matters to you. Society might say that a trend or fad is important. I say, decide what matters to you. If you just swim in the currents of the societal river, you will be slowly stripped of your uniqueness. And what's a world with out free thinkers? I find it interesting that the society tries to unify. But with out people who broke trend, our world, our society would be nothing like it is. The paradox is strangely funny. Think about it.

Sick

The communication skills of this generation are lackluster to say the least. Things like Facebook inhibit the ability of the youth to communicate outside of the realm of the internet. Things like cyber-bullying. Kids who wouldn't normally bully another person hide behind the ruse of the internet to tell another kid how they really feel. And as a society we are just accepting it as a social norm. And to me, a man blogging behind the ruse of blogspot.com, it is becoming a terrible practice. Another thing is when people meet people in the outside world for the first time. Then immediately go home, or use their 'smart' phone to add them as a friend on Facebook. It is almost as if a friendship is not a friendship unless it is Facebook official. There is a purpose for Facebook. Communication via internet is not a bad thing, in moderation. However, the sickness that is engulfing the world's population needs to be vaccinated. Or if nothing else suppressed. Human to human communication needs to be revived. It is setting the youth of this generation up for disaster when they enter the real world. But who really knows, one day that will be the only form of communication: Internet. Could you imagine? A world where the only way people talked to one another would be through a screen. That's not what I want. Is it what you want?

It's Terminal

We all have it. It was passed on to us by our  fathers and his father before him and so on. It's life. Mortality. Death. Most people don't ever come to grips with death. The thought that one day your life will cease to be, is rarely in peoples minds. It should be. However one shouldn't dwell on that thought. There is a big difference between dwelling and thinking. When a person dies, they don't just die. They impact other people. To never think about your death is borderline selfish. So all that I am saying is think before you die. Thank you.

If I die is anyone going to care?

Haunting question. If I die, is anyone going to care? And if anyone does care how much is sincere and how much is not. The best example I can think of is the case of Michael Jackson. The media swing was absolutly incredible. Just before he died, he was a child rapist. Then the second he died, America was reflecting on how great he was. One second he was a terrible person. The next second he was a legend. Death brings out an interesting character trait in people. So now back to the question: If I die will anyone really care? To answer this look at how many actual friends you have. Not how many friends you have on Facebook. Because the only thing that measures is a person's level of insecurity. But the actual number of friends you have. That doesn't mean that every friend is a good friend and will actually care when you are gone. I am in no way condoning death. But it is a question that has come into my mind a time or two. Another thing that is important to remember is that people and relationships are a temporary thing. You and Your self that is something that you cannot get rid of short of offing yourself.

It ain't so bad?

It is. Life is an awful thing. But much like everything else, most have to go through it. Sure, we can all say: "It could be worse." But that doesn't benefit anything. The fact is that if things are bad they are bad. At that point in time things can't get worse. Things are what they are. No changing it. No changing anything. Personal suffering is a very serious aspect in the way that things are. Currently, there are things that I'm not too happy about. But as time goes on, I am coming to understand that just because I'm going through a tough time in my life, I cannot let it rub off on anyone else. Because it isn't anyone else's problem how I react to a situation. Is that fair? I can't answer that at this point in my life. However, it's fact. Another thing that I am beginning to understand is that facts suck. They don't help. It's the same as people saying useless cliches to help you trough something. Seeking advice for your personal issues is a good thing. Just make sure you're getting this advice from someone who means a damn to you. If people you look to for advice don't care about you, or don't know you on a personal level the level of meaningful advice that they can give to you is nothing. So don't ask yourself if it could be worse. Just don't do that. Instead, tell yourself, "This is it. This is life. What can I do to make it worth anything." Troubles only last as long as you let them.

To Give Up

At what point does one give up? The typical response is, "It varies. It depends on what you're giving up on." My response to that is, "Is it?" Let's think about this. Does it matter what you're giving up on? Is there a different threshold for every event, that states when it is acceptable to just give up? I don't think there is. I think to preserve self dignity one needs to give up as fast as they can. This is of course talking more in the vain of things like relationships, or things like that. Not talking here things like schooling, or education. But in order to preserve self dignity and respect, giving up is very vital. Now we can talk about the repercussions of giving up for the next 21 days. However, in the end is it worth it? And that is the question that everyone needs to ask themselves. "Is it going to be worth it?" That question should really make anyone who asks themselves really think about the choices that they are making. So ask your self... Is it worth it? See where it takes you.

Thank You

Life makes people grow. Sometimes that isn't always in a good way. However, every experience leaves you with a choice. The choice is to learn or grow bitter. This choice isn't always consciously decided. It is only apparent to us when we look back. So the question is, are you going to choice right? So this is, in part, a thank you for every experience. Good or bad. It made me, and is making me who I am, and who I will be.

Influence

Everyone influences everyone. In fact, to not be influenced is a lie. The question is how much are people influenced? To be influenced is not a bad thing. But at some point does it become a problem? When one let's them self become so influenced that they loose personality. At which point groups are started. I'm sure everyone is aware of the common stereotype of the cheerleaders. There is only one person who thinks for themselves, the rest follow blindly. At that point influence is a bad thing. But overall is it? Without influence in America, would it be the same place? The beautiful thing about influence and the the human mind. Everyone see's and interprets things differently. Therefore, when someone is influenced by an idea, and duplicates an idea, it will be different than the original idea. And in a way that's how we get variety.

Those who find self worth in how others view them

Most of us have met people like this. Regardless of how this person portrays themselves, it is apparent to us that their value isn't where it belongs. However, that is not to say that how you come off to another human being isn't important, but the issue comes in when how one comes off to another human being becomes more important than how one views one's self. A fictional story I once heard that ties very nicely into this particular topic: There was once a girl. She was beautiful, but she had a flaw. The flaw wasn't a flaw that one could see if they walked by her on the streets. This flaw was an internal flaw. She had no self worth. The idea of her being 'good' or anything of that likeness was so far fetched to her. Again this was not because she was undesirable, in fact it was actually quite the opposite. The reason she viewed her self so poorly was because from the time she was a little girl there was always someone telling her that she was not good enough. Now at this point the proper thing to do would be to shake off that idea and move on. However, she didn't do that. Instead she started to change herself. She began to mutate herself into a crowd pleasing alien that was foreign to even herself. Eventually, this alien being that had taken over her body had become so distant to that what she is on the inside, she killed herself. Granted this is an extreme case of a person who viewed others opinions over her own, but my question is, is it really that far fetched? Is it so hard to be so distant from one's self to the point of not knowing who one is? And the most important question, do you view others opinions of you more important than you view yourself?