Music in general

I'm worried about the future of music. And more specifically pop music. Pop music has never been good. I believe that music that is good has to be discovered. However that is not what I am talking about. I don't know how music has always been, but lately I feel as though that modern "pop" music is just lazy. That is not to say that there isn't good or catchy songs in today's pop music, but it is to criticize some artists that  are just a pretty face. And I think that the fault lies much more in the producers etc. that promote these artists, who in fact haven't done much for the music community. It is something that I find disheartening

human beings

Relationships with people are an interesting thing. Every person is different and can react differently to the same situation. I'm finding it hard to know and trust people. Is that good? No. Is that what I want? No. Is that happening anyways? Yes. The evolution of a friendship is also an interesting thing. It's a tough thing to jump back into a pool that you almost drowned in, but at the same time I don't want anything as much as I want to be in that pool. But I have to be prepared for it. I don't know if I am. I guess we'll have to find out.

Not...much....left...

I am realizing more and more that things that go wrong in my life are mostly because of bad decisions that I have made through out it. So there is not point in getting upset when things don't go the way that I would prefer them to. Regardless of how I may or may not feel about something, I know that I put myself there. This is not an easy realization. In fact now, I have put myself into a very bad situation. Procrastination and my issues with it isn't procrastinations fault. I feel that when I get into these situations it is much easier to blame the issue than yourself.

Enter the world of veganism

So as an experiment I'm not going to eat or use anything that was made or produced by an animal.

You

There is something that I am realizing as time goes on. This is that I cannot rely on anyone to provide me with happiness. This is something that until recently I have not thought a whole lot about. But none the less it is true. It has been my experience that when I try to find my happiness in other people I get very let down. Now that is not to say that other people don't make me happy. People do make me happy. But to rely on others to provide my happiness doesn't work. At least not for me. So my advice is find out what makes you happy and do it. Regardless what anyone else might say. Do it.

Love is.

What is love? I recently got out of a long relationship. And when a huge part of your life leaves, it makes one think about what really matters. What is love? But the questions can be diluted by other choices that you are also forced to make. How to deal with every day things. After a relationship is ended, the feelings don't always leave with it. And here we are. Starting over. Not as we. But as a half of what you were. Half of what we were. I'm not bitter or sad or angry. There is a readjusting process that takes place. And it truly is a process. There is a realization that happens. It is that there is always something to take away. In anything, there can be something to take away. Something that can be used at a later time. Maybe it's a mindset. A view point that has changed. But the thing about it is that you don't really notice it until after it's already happened. So at this point all I know is that there is something that I have to take away. Or maybe I already have. One thing that I know that will not do me any good is to be angry with the other person. Honestly, I want only the best for her. And I mean that. Most people stay bitter. Or angry for the rest of all time. But think about what that does. It is a proven fact that harboring strong negative emotions, lies, etc, is bad for your health. Now I am in no way saying that the only reason I'm choosing to be O.K. is for my health. Far from it. But there comes a point when people need to accept reality, people and the choices that they make.And honestly, I respect her for doing what she had to do. In order to be happy, you need to push out the bad memories and remember the good. Because in my case the good far out weighed the bad. And for that, Thank you.